"Begins to Grieve"

I wish to God I had a way

To speak to you tonight

I want to talk about my day

With you to make it right

But as I sit here pen in hand

I know it cannot be

For gone are times of yesterday

And all it meant to me

I hear an empty hollow sound

An echo in my heart

The pain it brings is hard and cold

I wish it would depart

I know with time my heart will mend

The hollow sound will leave

But now I feel the emptiness

My heart begins to grieve

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- shortly after my mother died I was thinking about something and picked up the phone to call my mother and tell her all about it - that is when it hit me she was gone - this was a couple of weeks after the funeral - I had been mourning etc... but the finality of it arrived at this point -